Day 7: The Blue Notebook

“How can I reach you, Lord? How can I entreat you? As a daughter to a father, I implore you! As a bride to her groom, I beg you! As a creation to her creator, I shake my head in fear and confusion and say: “Ahah, Ahah! Surely now he will have mercy!” I twist my insides about, hoping the answer will pop out. Please have mercy.

I had some deep moments with God the other night, almost too deep, and then last night my prayers wouldn’t float above my pillow. Nothing! When things with God feel deep and real, I worry I am mentally unwell. Then when there’s nothing, I struggle to feel that life has any meaning at all.  The question of how personal does God desire to be with us is one I keep coming back to. Cas

‘I have nothing peculiarly to recommend me but this, I dare to ask, and I dare to believe.’ Please indulge me Lord and allow me to know you better. Cas

 Matthew 7:7-8
“Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find;

knock, and it shall be opened unto you:
For every one that asketh receiveth;

and he that seeketh findeth;
and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.”

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