Day 3: The Blue Notebook

God couldn’t rapture me to Heaven to hear Uncle David play ‘How Great Thou Art’ so He brought Uncle David’s guitar to my son. Now Isaac plays that hymn so beautifully. Amazing to hear it in my home. Wonderful to see and hear dad and Isaac playing together. Cas

I don’t know if it means my medication is being less effective, but I have actually felt some connection with God. I have had some truly profound moments. I need to start writing about them instead of hiding behind endless colouring in and Netflix.

‘I need God more than air!’ This is true.

‘Don’t give me trinkets of sanity and take away my connection with you Lord!’ I did pray this. I have spent a lot of time apologising. After all, I want sanity, it’s not a trinket, and I desperately don’t want to end up in the mental ward again.

“Existential Experience!’ I want to experience my spirituality with God.

‘Us.’ I want there to be an ‘us’ with God and I. I want connection, relationship, meaning. Cas

James 4:8
8 Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you.

Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded.
 Psalm 73:28
28 But it is good for me to draw near to God:

I have put my trust in the Lord God, that I may declare all thy works.

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