Sharing from my many shelves of journals. The mostly biographical poetry and writing of an Australian Christian woman living with schizoaffective disorder.
Darkside
Cas Reeves 2004
You've got a dark side,
And it's always there
And you're walking the line
Between Heaven and Hell.
You're running, and you're hiding
And you're living in the dark.
So close to God
Yet warped in my soul.
Laying exposed in the dark
Mind is going crazy
And the brain is doing twirls.
Loving God and flying to his arms,
Rescue me, oh rescue me from myself.
Cannot walk and cannot talk
And cannot see the light.
So alone,
Hoping and I'm dreaming,
And I'm empty, and I'm full.
I've got a dark side
And it's beautiful and broken
But it frightens even me.
When you have a mental illness, especially one that splits your personality, you find that you are most frightened of yourself. I have DID (dissociative identity disorder) as well as Schizoaffective. I hope in the rest of this challenge to try to bring awareness of what it’s like to live with the condition that used to be called multiple personality disorder. This is very hard to share and I ask for patience and understanding.
I'm a 46 year old Christian married mother of two young adults who I had the honour of homeschooling for 12 years. My husband Rodney and I live in Brisbane Australia. I am creating this space to share, as God leads, some of my writing and experiences living with schizoaffective disorder and pursuing a deeper healing relationship with God.
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Cheryl Reeves Writing - from my shelves of journals 