Day 15: Delusional

Delusional
Cas Reeves 2015
 
I gave birth to the Universe
In the courtyard
Of the mental ward.
I was alone,
But not,
For all the Dragon Queens
Of unfathomable eons
Kept me company
As I sat
Content,
In my fluffy pink bathrobe
And marvelled
At how much easier it was
To give birth to time and space
As opposed to a human child.
I submitted to the council of elders
That there was a great injustice
Handed to humanity in this regard.
It did not seem strange to me
To sit amongst distant spirits
And feel exhausted
Yet complete.
Not the mother of the Universe,
But one more daughter
Giving birth to the future.
I want people to understand mental illness. If nobody shares, how will the stigma ever be lifted?
I saw dragons, spoke with them; knew them. My mind built a whole mythos that made perfect sense to me. If I told it to you as a fictional story you would think: what a wonderful imagination, what a strange, symbolic allegory. But it wasn’t fictional to me at the time; it was my truth and experience. I was delusional. Some of my delusions were beautiful; not all were scary. Although some were terrifying, running outside screaming, stark raving mad terrifying. It feels like peeling back my skin to share, but delusions are a part of this mental illness.

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  1. Hi Cheryl! Thanks a lot for choosing to follow The Pinay Ajumma! I’m so grateful for your support. I look forward to reading more great posts from you! 🙂

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